We need to remind ourselves that
lovers share. Lovers do not take, leaving the other bereft. What we offer to
share first is our liberty, which leads to the generosity of a great-souled
person. Although liberty is a gift from God, our communicating is the very
action whereby the potential, which is ours, is actualized in our sharing. We
therefore start with sharing our liberty and by doing so, we find that we make
ourselves more fully available to our beloved. It is helpful to remember that a
gift is not actualized until it has been shared.
I'd like to suggest some practical steps
to share yourself to God and with others.
Ignatius and
the composition of place
A grounding exercise in the 30-day
retreat is the Nativity scene when a person is to imagine the setting of the
birth of Jesus. We are to examine the movements and conversations of Joseph and
Mary, the inn-keeper, shepherds and the visiting Magi, and every scriptural and
non-scriptural person who shows up in the scene. infant
Jesus We are to imaginatively
immerse ourselves in the scriptural scenes before the real true heart of the
prayer takes shape: the conversation, which is a turning towards one another in
openness. Conversations entails more listening than it does speaking.
Conversation means that our whole being is oriented toward another person.
I want to tell you a short story that
I read in Mitch Albom's book, "Have a little faith," to illustrate
this point.
A little girl came home from school with a drawing she had made in class. She danced into the kitchen where
her mother was preparing dinner.
"Mom, guess what?" she squealed, waving the drawing.
Her mother never looked up.
"What?" she said, tending to the pots.
"Guess what?" the child repeated, waving the drawing.
"What?" the mother said, tending to the plated.
"Mom, you're not listening."
"Sweetie, yes I am."
"Mom," the child said, "you're not listening with your eyes."
"Mom, guess what?" she squealed, waving the drawing.
Her mother never looked up.
"What?" she said, tending to the pots.
"Guess what?" the child repeated, waving the drawing.
"What?" the mother said, tending to the plated.
"Mom, you're not listening."
"Sweetie, yes I am."
"Mom," the child said, "you're not listening with your eyes."
Ignatius wants us to use our senses in
our prayer. Senses feed our intellect and heart. They provide necessary data
that we use to make judgments and interpret events. Our imagination needs this
sensory and sensual data because the imagination will unite all parts of our
being: intellect, heart, emotions, physiological and psychological movements so
the imagination can bring meaning to the world. Through all of this, we come to
understand more fully what we need and desire. Once we get a handle on this, we
then tell God what we need and desire and we ask for it. Hence, this
conversation becomes the cornerstone of our Ignatian-style prayer.
Give yourself a gift today of
lingering with your senses. As you walk outside, take a look around at the
obvious beauty of this place, but make sure you also go a little deeper. Look
higher up in the sky and lower onto the forest floor to notice those details
that are often overlooked. When we contemplate some image, it is always a tiny
detail, not the whole corpus, that speaks to us uniquely. Just as we contemplate
Christ in a prayer session, we keep our focus upon him and when we catch a
particular detail, it is then that he brings up to us the stuff of our lives,
the stuff of December 29th, 2011. Christ wants to bring greater meaning to our
life's events.
So walk around with obvious attention
to what you see, but also honor your other senses. Smell is a favorite sense
for Ignatius for it evokes meaningful memories. Go outside and smell the salt
air and the home cooking of our chefs. Taste the salt that is in the air. If
you see a particular berry or leaf that you life, don't just look at it. Pick
it. Twirl it around in your finger, and if it is not poison ivy, rub in against
your cheeks. Feel the cool air on your cheeks as well. Listen, as the girl asks
her mommy, with your eyes, and ears, the nose, and mouth, and skin. Immerse
yourself. Refrain from making judgments, just allow yourself to feel alive. And
don't forget to breathe - deep, slow, sustained breaths. Let there be nothing
quick about your breaths. Just breathe in deeply and slowly and breathe out
with the same sustained effort.
Do
you realize?
A
contemporary rock band called The Verve wrote a song a few years ago that I
really like to sing. It is called, "Do you realize?" The question
they ask you to consider is this: Do you realize - that - you - have - the most
beautiful - face? When was the last time you heard someone say that to you? Do
you believe it? Do you believe that you are truly beautiful - to God, to
yourself, and to others? All parts of you? with your weaknesses and strengths,
your beauty and warts, and those good life choices you' ve made and even those
ones you regret and haven't allowed yourself to receive God's forgiveness. Can
you allow yourself to truly believe you are beautiful?
The way I always begin my prayer is to place myself before God to merely let God gaze upon me. I ask that God see me, feel me, hear me, and to know what I am feeling. I ask that God behold me, just as Mary would have gazed upon her infant son when he was born, the way your parents gazed upon you as a newborn. How does God respond? God looks upon me with wonder and awe. God wants you to know that he gazes upon you the same way. You take his breath away and he can't do anything but be astonished by who you are. God wants to tell you that you have such a beautiful face and he holds it in his memory.
The way I always begin my prayer is to place myself before God to merely let God gaze upon me. I ask that God see me, feel me, hear me, and to know what I am feeling. I ask that God behold me, just as Mary would have gazed upon her infant son when he was born, the way your parents gazed upon you as a newborn. How does God respond? God looks upon me with wonder and awe. God wants you to know that he gazes upon you the same way. You take his breath away and he can't do anything but be astonished by who you are. God wants to tell you that you have such a beautiful face and he holds it in his memory.
Story
of an amazing woman in Jamaica who lovingly gazed upon her daughter.
Most of us are not good at taking
compliments. We have to receive these words and thoughts from God. If we begin
our prayer in this way, knowing that we are cherished to the core, something
wonderful will happen in our hearts that allow us to open up to God. God will
be holding us and coaxing us to tell him everything that we are feeling - the
positive and negative emotions - the whole gamut of who we are because we are
our feelings and our choices.
Prayer
is revealing who we authentically, genuinely are to God, and letting God reveal
something about God's self back to us. We have to let God know everything about
our emotions so God can feel what we are feeling. We are not to judge our
feelings, but merely say, "I'm feeling peaceful because....,"
"I'm feeling anxious because..." "I'm feeling afraid
because..." We just are to tell God that we have these feelings. When we
spew forth our 37 complicated, over-lapped, unexpressed feelings to God, we can
rest in the fact that we told someone who really wants to know how we are
feeling. God can do something with these feelings when we name them. Speaking
of these allows us to answer two questions God will ask us: "What do you
need?" and "What do you want?" God acts through our desires.
God's puts them there and wants us to develop them. These are the gifts that
are to be actualized. These gifts make us distinct from another person and
acting upon these desires are where we find God's will, which is always
expressed in the immediate present. It is in the now. God will ratify, affirm
confirm his will for you uniquely as you express your desires to him.
Once we tell God what we need and ask
for what we want, we can sit back and enjoy the rest of prayer. God is always
generous and is always laboring for your own good. God wants to grace you with
his presence and shower you with his affection. God wants to spoil you rotten.
Rest content because you will know God hears you and considers how to give you
the very best. It is at that point, we become concerned with God's well being.
We turn to God and say: Since you, O God, have given me the grace to see me,
feel me, hear me, and feel what I am feeling, give me the grace to see you, to
hear you, to feel what you are feeling. This is the mutuality that Ignatius
writes of at the close of the Exercises. Love is mutual and is to be shared
between lovers.
Before I get to the meditation, I'll close
with a quote from Richard McBrien:
If love
is the soul of Christian existence, it must be at the heart of every other Christian
virtue. Thus, for example, justice without love is legalism; faith without love
is ideology; hope without love is self-centeredness; forgiveness without love
is self-abasement; fortitude without love is recklessness; generosity without
love is extravagance; care without love is mere duty; fidelity without love is
servitude. Every virtue is an expression of love. No virtue is really a virtue
unless it is permeated, or informed, by love.
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